Yesterday i had dinner with a good friend, what seems like a life time away now we served as slaves next to each other. As with all things in life the path wound in directions that we had not expected. Bit by bit she experimented with her Dominant side, with me, to the enjoyment of both of us. In time i met my Master and fell head over heals and our playing stopped. She continued on the road to Dominance and now is the Mistress to two slaves.

The idea of 'switching' is for me unfathomable but with her it 'fits.' It's cool to see how she has grown in that period, her perceptions have changed but she still understands a slaves heart. It set me to thinking about my own Dominant streak, could i? would i? Nope, i really don't think i could, there are parts of me that can identify with it, the planning, the training, the slowly but surely having some submit with all their heart totally to you but i am just not sadistic, i have no inclination to use a whip on someone, to control someone, i enjoy it way too much myself to want to take on that role.

That said i have pretty much always had the dominant role in relationships, not in a BDSM sense but its something that i now still come across and have difficulty dealing with. Its not something i want, totally not, my choice to submit was a very conscious one but sometimes old habits die very very hard.